If you follow me on Twitter or Facebook, you may have read a post, this morning, similar to what I’m about to share.

Something is strongly on my heart this morning and I feel the need to get it out there.

Lilie started school on Monday and I couldn’t have been more happy or excited for her.  Its an all day, 8:00-3:00, days a week program at a private Lutheran school.  The fact that we’re able to provide something like this for her is a big deal to me.

When people ask me about her first day, I always get questions like, “Are you nervous?” and “Yes, but how did mommy handle the first day?”  Well, mommy handled the first day just fine.  The second day was just as easy.

And then there was today.  Day number three.  I think I’m one of those people that has to chew on things for a bit before I get the full effect.

I pulled up into the drop off line, just like the past two days.  A teacher opened Lilie’s door to help her out, just like yesterday.  We exchanged kisses, I-Love-You’s and I wished her a good day and she hopped out….just like yesterday.

 But as I watched her trot into the school and pulled the car away, it hit me.  ”Look how far we have come,”  I thought to myself.  My eyes filled with tears, as I became so overwhelmed with thankfulness.

I thought back to when her father and I separated.  How my life seemed to just fall apart in front of me.  All my plans, dreams, goals.  Crushed.  I had no clue how I was going to support us both and give her the life I so badly wanted for her.  

A point in my life where I had lost all faith.

 Now, here we are just two and a half years later.  We have a lovely home, a nice car, good clothes to wear, healthy food in our bellies, a great school with a godly environment for Lilie, we belong to an awesome church and we’re accompanied by a loving, loyal man to help and support us all the way. 

{Summer 2010}

I’m a planner.  A control freak.  When things didn’t go my way, I threw my hands in the air and faith to the wind.  I focused solely on supporting my daughter and surviving this life.  I knew what I wanted, but just kind of put that all on the back burner and just focused on doing what needed to be done. 

{Fall 2009}

I often look back on that time in my life and every time I do, it seems I find a new lesson being taught.  Through all the storm clouds, I now see so many rays of sunshine beaming through.

Today, I look back, again, and find something new I think God was trying to communicate to me.  ”Let go.  I have a plan.  Take a break and let me take care of things.”

Remember that control-freak nature I admitted to having?  I think God was using that event in my life to remind me I’m not the one in control.  He is.  I was just holding on so tightly, it took a really good shaking up to make me see things His way.  At a time I was so strong in my faith, I still couldn’t just give Him control.

Its only nine in the morning and the Lord has already reminded me of such a valuable lesson.  To have faith and let go.

 To trust He will get us where we need to be.

 I’d like to share a couple verses with you:

‘‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’’ Isaiah 41:10

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11

Have you ever experienced a life altering moment, only to look back and see that maybe it wasn’t to hurt you, but to teach you and build you up to be the person you are now?  

I hope you’ll share your lessons in the comments below.